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A bit of background on last summer’s project and how it led to this project:

I took a Research in the Social Work Profession class in last year’s Spring semester. As part of that class we did several projects, and I noticed in doing mine that there was a lack of GLBT-related material in the major social work journals, and that nonbinary identities might as well not exist as far as the literature was concerned. I found a study that was done in 2002, and repeated by a different group in 2014, that looked at lesbian and gay content in 4 significant social work journals, but there wasn’t anything similar for nonbinary content. So I wrote a proposal and got accepted for a URECA (Undergraduate Research Experience and Creative Activity) grant that gave me $2000 to do a nifty study that ended up as "More missing: Expanding content analysis in social work journals to include non-binary orientations and gender identities".

“How )

“What )

That’s probably enough babble for one post, so I’m going to stop there for now. If this is too babble-y or doesn't make any sense, let me know.

(Also, I have no clue why my cut tags are messing up. The first one should be "How it was done" and the second one should be "What I found".)
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I made it through program prerequisites! And I got a transfer scholarship! However, disability grants have been discontinued because of budget cuts, and scholarship funds are not available until after class starts... which is going to make moving to actually attend MTSU impossible without help. Please, if you can, pass this on so maybe I can crowd-fund enough to take advantage of the opportunity my hard work has earned.

Help Sana Get Her Scholarship!

(A "real" post to follow in the next day or two.)
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RE: previous entry

Let me know your Paypal email so I can send it back next month.


Sep. 18th, 2012 02:09 pm
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What upsets me is the emphasis that even the critics are putting on who pays taxes. I've seen a lot of people making arguments about how the working poor pay payroll taxes and sales taxes but this is beside the point. The implication is that there is a point at which you are too poor to matter, at some point you are not able to contribute to the economy and it's all your own damn fault and "we" owe "you" nothing. Equally I see a lot of rhetoric regarding how willing to work people are, meaning that, what? If you aren't willing to work you should just go die in a hole? I don't care how lazy, selfish or even downright mean someone is, they still deserve food in their belly and a roof over their heads. There is no heirarchy of who deserves food and shelter. We all deserve it because we are alive and we are human and it is incumbent upon all of us care for one another.

~Kristin Craig Lai on Shakesville
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Much of this is from something on another journal. I'm kinda putting together some of my reactions in a really disjointed kind of way because this week is not conducive to brain, but I didn't want to stop poking. If something doesn't make sense, please ask. If you're just curious about something, please ask. And there will probably be more related later. Especially if I get nifty questions, or I go off on a tangent, or for just universal randomness.

There's no such thing as universal "sub traits". There are no traits that are universally valued by a preponderance of d-types. There are no traits that are expressed by a preponderance of s-types.

Submission and/or slavery are personal and individual. How they are expressed is unique to each individual s-type - and to each relationship between an s-type and a d-type.

Submission and dominance are not necessarily sexual things - particularly the 24/7 kind. Robin and I are not M and s because it makes our pink parts tingly. (There are some bits that do feed into that, but they are not the reason, or the mainstay, of What It Is That We Do.) She doesn't fetch my tea, or pick up my plates, or set up my wheels or whatever for a sexual thrill. She does it simply because it pleases me and that makes her happy.

There are many things I do for her because she is my beloved pet and spoiling her makes *me* happy. Very rarely do I order her around (and then I'm usually teasing). Robin and I have been together for a very long time, we talk about a lot of things regularly, and she pays very close attention to me. She knows what I like and what I need and she takes care of me. Simply and quietly and discretely.

What we have isn’t to satisfy some drive in either one of us. It's just the relationship style that works for us here-and-now. If I fell off the face of the earth, she'd not be going off searching for someone to serve. If I didn't have her, I wouldn't feel a lack of service or be searching for a slave. Some of my other relationships have had D/s elements. Some didn't.

Having someone submit to me isn't a "need". I don't need my will validated. I'm a Witch - I'm well aware of my will and what it can do; I have all the validation I need from my Craft and my Gods. I don't need to be told that my needs are important - my own self-worth tells me that. This isn't an ego game. I am a d-type. That's no different from "I have blue eyes". Not your kind of d-type? Fine. Then we don't need to play together then, do we? No skin off my nose.

That's all I've got for tonight. See ya'll later.
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If anyone currently residing in the US would be willing to fill out a sociology questionnaire for a starving college student, would you please either reply with the answers to the following, or send your answers to sanacrow at foocatz dot com.

No personally identifying information is collected or used. If you chose to respond via email, your response will only be seen by myself and my 3 project partners. The aggregate data will be used in a paper and presentation for our current events sociology class.

Thank you!!

Sociology Questionnaire: Group Project

clicky thing )


Mar. 7th, 2012 05:45 pm
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Now I remember why I stopped reading most pagan lists and boards.

Why, again, are we not supposed to brickbat annoying pups?

Yeah, yeah... I know... don't feed the trolls... ::grumble::kick::grumble::
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2. What's your take on what parts of gender (however you wish to define that) are inborn, and what parts are societal? Do you have any particular views on the role of chromosomes, in utero hormones, etc.? Or are all of those kinds of questions irrelevant?

According to current medical knowledge (as reported in various peer-reviewed journals, including The International Journal of Transgenderism, The Journal of Clinical Endocrinology & Metabolism, and a whole lot of others I'm not gonna dig up my notes to list off) there's a whole lot that goes into what we lump under "sex" and "gender".

Chromosomes are important, but they're more of a guideline than a rule. XX and XY are the most common, but there's a lot more variation than anyone covers in 8th grade biology. And XX doesn't always mean "female" nor does XY always mean "male" even in basic physical development. It's one of the reasons that "genetic female only" line cracks me up. Unless they're karyotyping at the door, you can't tell what chromosomes someone has from their anatomy, their endocrinology, or any method other than genetic karyotyping. In addition, assigned-female individuals cannot be assumed to all posses uteri, vaginas or differentiated vulvae, assumed to menstruate, or assumed to anything else commonly claimed to be universal to women. Gasp! Some women - including some "genetic women" - even have cliterophalluses! Teh shock!

There's a lot of statistically-common variation out there. I sometimes love to get in the middle of some of these debates and point out that my wife, who was assigned male at birth, has XX chromosomes (and XXY ones - she's a mosaic variation of Klinefelter syndrome). I'm the one who has given birth, and my karyotype is XoXY. I have conceived (multiple times, on birth control even), birthed healthy children, breastfed - and yet I had testes as well as ovaries well into adulthood. And the two of us are not all that rare.

According to the folks that study such things, there are three major contributors to sex during development - the influence of the chromosomes contributed by the two parents, the hormone balance in the fetus (and, to a lesser extent, in the mother) during brain development, and the hormone balance in the fetus (again, and to a lesser extent in the mother) during gonadal definition an development. The latter two are considered to be the largest influences, and usually they "line up" and the hormone balances at the two different points influence development in the same direction. But not always, and there are an infinite number of variations possible.

All of that was just about sex. Gender is a whole other fettle of kish, and probably has just as much complexity. Ditto to gender presentation.

How much is innate, and how much is societal? I think that's going to vary dramatically depending on the individual. Some folks are rather fluid in one or both, some folks have strong innate preferences that influence their gender identity and/or presentation, and others (probably the majority) have some areas that are "natural" to them and others they pick up and still others they don't even have a thought about.

For me, I'm mostly read as female, and mostly anatomically female. I generally ID as intersex, and either genderqueer or soft butch. I would like to be able to mod my body in some ways (and remove some feminine markers) that are not possible for me, yet there are some aspects of a female body I really like. There are some ways I wish I could be more masculine, but I do not want a male body. Queer I am.

#s 3-7 to follow.
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1. Why Sana? Is it related to the Latin, or something else?

It's a from "Strands of Starlight" and "Spires of Spirit", two of the "Starlight" series by Gael Boudino. It's the name given by the elves to Roxanne, a human witch. In their language, it means the glint of moonlight on the edge of a blade.

I was given a pre-release copy of "Strands of Starlight" by someone I respect greatly because they thought it would help me with a situation I was having a hard time dealing with. It did.

I chose "Sana" when I had to pick a "name to be known by" early in my training because Roxanne was the kind of witch I wanted to be someday. Originally it was kinda private, only used with the group I trained with and a few close friends. Then it was a "public" craft name. For the last couple of decades it's been more my name than my legal one. One of these days I'll get around to making it legal...

I still don't think I'm like Roxanne. But I'm still working on it.

#s 2-7 to follow.
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... although this evening it kinda feels like it.

I'se not away from the social media because of medical foo this time. I'se going back to school.

Thanks to help from disability services, an almost-reasonable financial aid package and an assistive tech grant, I am now a full-time student with a dual major in Social Work and Community Health doing the universal transfer portion of the program at Pellissippi State.

I'm still figuring out scheduling everything in, and re-learning how to study... and am a bit overwhelmed a great deal of the time right now... but I think (most of the time) that it'll work out. But right now.... I'm going to go take a lot of drugs and collapse...


Jul. 12th, 2011 09:05 pm
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The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.

~ M. Scott Peck


Jul. 11th, 2011 11:41 pm
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'I feel I should thank you,' said Oats, when they reached the spiral staircase.

'For helping you across the mountains, you mean?'

'The world is... different.' Oats's gaze went out across the haze, and the forests, and the purple mountains. 'Everywhere I look I see something holy.'

For the first time since he'd met her he saw Granny Weatherwax smile properly. Normally her mouth went up at the corners just before something unpleasant was going to happen to someone who deserved it, but this time she appeared to be pleased with what she'd heard.

'That's a start, then,' she said.

~ Granny Weatherwax, via Terry Pratchett (Carpe Jugulum)


Jul. 10th, 2011 11:07 pm
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... That's part of the "These Paths Are Not For Everyone" speech. Not that they aren't rewarding paths; not that they're never fun... but they are full of trials and annoyances and hard work, and dammed little in the way of objectively-identifiable rewards.

When most people are interested in my religion, I try to push them away. "Don't bother," I let them know. "Check out this new age stuff instead; it's got lots of good personal growth exercises & many people are very happy with it." And, "it's too hard to find competent mentors, and too easy to get caught up in other people's ego trips. Hell, it's too easy to get caught in your own ego trips. Go away. Do some nice positive visualization chants and wear a pentacle if you must, but stay away from the gods' they're not always nice folks, and they're <1>wierd.

Oh. Eris sent you, hmmmm? Well, ahm, have a Principia and a Drum Abuse flyer; relax and enjoy the ride 'cos the other options are worse. Melek's been visiting you? Err, I hope you liked it, and tell him that it goes better with a good lube. No, there's not much you can do to convince him to leave you alone, but he doesn't seem to bother people who don't have the *capacity* to enjoy his attentions...

The point is that the "trials", such as they are, come with rewards that may not be apparent from the outside. and we mention them early and often because right now, paganism is *flooded* with people who dislike Christianity's rules and restrictions and want a religion that allows their personal quirks *and* says "the gods will love and cherish you whatever you do, and they will shower you with rewards if you are faithful to them." People ask, 'why don't the gods comfort all those people who are suffering? How can they build a relationship with the gods?" (paraphrase, don't shoot me) As if building a relationship with the gods would ease their suffering.

A relationship with the gods comes with a set of rewards. We don't talk about them much because (1) they're different for each god, and (2) they're not obtainable by wanting them; you have to *build that relationship* to get them. They're also generally not negotiable; Kwan Yin offers compassion but requires it to be directed at others; Eris offers what's often considered insanity; the Feri gods offer beauty and power, but require a devotion to art and sensuality.

Mostly we give warnings about trials so that when people start on these paths they've got some idea of what's ahead of them. We don't need to tell people about the rewards; they'll find those for themselves.

~ Elf of Elfwreck


Jul. 9th, 2011 10:44 pm
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Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart, and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue ... do not now seek the answers which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them ... and the point is to live everything ... live the questions now ... perhaps you will then, without noticing it, live along into the answers.

~ Rainer Maria Rilke


Jul. 9th, 2011 12:10 am
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... JUST: (adv.) merely, simply.

I hate this word. It minimizes. It trivializes. "Just" do this, or that. It tells me the person speaking thinks the action should be easy. It ignores circumstances and individual capabilities in favor of a normative narrative of what "everyone" should be able to do. It also implies a moral judgment - the speaker obviously believes the course of action is not only easy, by their own arbitrary standards (usually heavily influenced by society's standards, of course), but the *right* thing to do. It erases conflicting emotions and tells you the choice should be easy, and therefore being conflicted about it is wrong. It invalidates peoples' feelings and experiences.

From a stranger or ideological opponent, it's sneering, condescending. From a loved one, it's even more damaging, a slap in the face. It is the worst word, a metric fuckton of condescension, patronization, minimization, trivialization, all wrapped up in four innocent letters.

So please. If you are ever tempted to 'splain someone's situation and the course of action you think they should take by saying "just do X", DON'T. No matter how obvious the solution seems to you. Just don't. Step back, think about why they might not have done that yet, and find a way to offer advice - IF they asked for it in the first place (which in my experience the object of this unfortunate phrase usually didn't) - that doesn't imply that the person is stupid for how they've handled themselves and their situation so far. Respect their decisionmaking process. Try giving them the benefit of the doubt - try assuming that they *do* know what they're doing, and that they *do* have reasons for handling things the way they have.

But for the love of all that was, is, and ever will be... "Just" stop.

from Jadelyn at Witch.Words
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Eris, look at the name of our dead.
Antinous, read the name of our dead.
Faro, remember the name of our dead.
Ymir, look at the name of our dead.
Indra, read the name of our dead.
Melek Ta'us, remember the name of our dead.
What is remembered, lives.
We shall always remember.

She made a difference. She will always be remembered.
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Has joined Ravelry:

Not much there yet - the pretties I was gifted with this weekend, and the lapghan I just started. Bounced around a bit and got some nifty ideas for when I can brain a more complicated pattern.
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These are the best things I've seen yet about the Feri/Faery goings-on:

From Eldriwolf

And from Chemalfait

Happy 2011!

Jan. 1st, 2011 02:25 am
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May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.
May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.
May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.
May all the new year's seasons
bring the best to you and yours!

Huggles, toasts, and blessings of the Heart and Host to all of you.


Oct. 21st, 2010 08:25 pm
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What did I do wrong?

This is what I wrote:

((person asking why there isn't more "X did Y, which is why there is a problem with action / choice Z" type information more easily available))

If I let a cousin copy something that is personal and private, and they
leave it out for all to see, I am not going to publicly point at it and
draw everyone's attention to it. If it's just one bit among a lot of
other stray bits, then it doesn't stand out -- no one hunting for the
Secrets of Sana is going to paw through anything looking for something
they have no reason to think is there.

I kevetch with close kin about certain individuals and how particular
bits have been "mistreated" here or there. But outside of that - even
with Feri students (or potential Feri students) - it really doesn't have
a place beyond rather general warnings, basic information about vetting
teachers and my usual "keep your brain with you at all times and watch
your ass, too" routine.

Sometimes, in talking with folks one-on-one, or in particular
circumstances, I will give an opinion (as well as a general bit about
the basis for it) of a specific teacher if it's directly asked for and
it's appropriate. Sometimes, in *very* specific circumstances, I'll
include more detail about why I hold that opinion. But I'm not going to
put up a neon sign saying "Here There Be Private Lore". And that's what
naming names often is. Especially on public / semi-public lists where
it's easy to find by folks who think that in hunting down and grabbing
bits and bobs - especially the super-sekrit ones - they're capturing
Feri. We don't need any more half-arsed carnys shilling basterdized


I've gotten two responses. Veedub using part of it as a jumping point for a related - but - not - exactly point... and thanks from one of the folks whose choices / methods I *really* don't like (for various reasons, some related to this stuff, some quite other).

I'm a bit perplexed in a vague 'that's not what I meant' sort of way...
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